No Time To Waste

I had a blast today! Barely any classes, chilling with the mains, and pure entertainment. We need more days like this. Looking back on this week, it wasn't the best and i realized that i haven't been or acted the best, but hey, I'm trying. When you're tired all the time, irritated down to the core and have so many responsibilities, wouldn't you act the same way? Especially the fact that i get NO SLEEP what so ever, it's not a good feeling. I must say, at times i feel like i wanna be left alone, but that doesn't mean i love anybody any less. I'm just having a moment.. It's funny because then you say I'M sensitive, which i am just not nearly as bad as half of y'all out there. Ya ll swear y'all low, but the fact of the matter is you're not. So continue to "keep things on the d.l." because by that time, the whole world can see right through you. We know what y'all be doing through the naked eye.. So there's no time to waste on things that are not essential. I like the finer things in life, how about you?

Make It Work by Ne-Yo

You understand me at least you say you do
Lately that's enough for me
Looking for perfect surrounded by artificial
You're the closest thing to real i see

Sure everyone has their problems, that's a given
Yours are the easiest to tolerate
This wasn't what we we were wanting, how we're living
But let's take this good enough and turn it to great, baby understand

This can only be as good as we both make it
Yes, sometimes it's gonna hurt
Yes, sometimes it's gonna hurt
We can be as happy as we want to be, girl
But we gotta make it work

We gotta make it work, ay oh ay oh oh
We gotta make it work, ay oh ay oh oh
We gotta make it work, ay oh ay oh oh
We gotta make it work, ay oh ay oh oh

Sometimes i love you more than you'll ever know
Other times you get on my nerves
Hey, that's just reality, no, it can't always be
Kisses, hugs and beautiful words

You was looking for your prince, what you found
Is a pauper with potential
And no, I'm nowhere near perfect but I'm around
Girl, time and patience is essential, baby realize

This can only be as good as we both make it
Yes, sometimes it's gonna hurt
Yes, sometimes it's gonna hurt
Hey, we can be as happy as we want to be, girl
But we gotta make it work

We gotta make it work, ay oh ay oh oh
We gotta make it work, ay oh ay oh oh
We gotta make it work, ay oh ay oh oh
We gotta make it work, ay oh ay oh oh

Thick and thin
The bad outweighs the good sometimes
That doesn't mean we're supposed to give it up
My problems are yours and yours are mine

This can only be as good as we both make it
Yes, sometimes it's gonna hurt
Yes, sometimes it's gonna hurt
Hey, we can be as happy as we want to be, girl
But we gotta make it work

We gotta make it work, ay oh ay oh oh
We gotta make it work, ay oh ay oh oh
We gotta make it work, ay oh ay oh oh
We gotta make it work, ay oh ay oh oh

Sooner Than Later by Drake

I forgot to call you on your birthday
You swear you're the last thing on my mind, yeah
There is nothing i can do to fix it
All you ever asked me for was time

When the lights don't glow the same way that they used to
And i finally get a moment to myself
I will realize you were everything i'm missing
And you tell you're in love with someone else

So can you do me a favor if i pull it together
Make it sooner than later, we won't be here forever
And i realize i waited to know
But please don't move on

You don't need no one else
You don't need no one else, oh
You don't need no one else
You don't need no one else, oh
You don't need no one else

You just changed your hair and it looks perfect
Wish i was the first to let you know
Every chance i get to make it better
I just find a way to let it go

When the lights don't glow the same way that they used to
And i finally get a moment to myself
I will realize you were everything i'm missing
And you tell me you're in love with someone else

So can you do me a favor if i pull it together
Make it sooner than later, we won't be here forever
And i realize i waited to know
But please don't move on

You don't need no one else
You don't need no one else, oh
You don't need no one else
You don't need no one else, oh
 You don't need no one else

The girl or the world, you see someone gotta lose
I thought i could have it all, do i really gotta choose
What good is all the cash if it doesn't buy time
And what good is bein' famous if i'm never on your mind

Nights fallen, light glowing
And i'm just tryna pay the price owing
And i don't wanna feel the comfort of my ice showing
And i ain't tryna be without you at the right moments

N*gga, nice goin', is it worth it, that dicision
'Cause hearts break and i ain't tryna be in that collision
So I'ma dust my shirts and fix my pants
'Cause i gotta look good, girl, if this my chance, i swear

So can you do me a favor if i pull it together
Make it sooner than later, we won't be here forever
And i realize i waited to know
But please don't move on

You don't need no one else
You don't need no one else, oh
You don't need no one else
You don't need no one else, oh
You don't need no one else

Brand New by Drake

This here is on some truthful sh*t
It seems like everything i do you're used to it
And i hate hearing stories 'bout who you've been with
That's when i gotta hide what i'm feeling inside

So you still think i'm confident and damn
Is this gonna last? You're still up on a pedestal
Are we moving too fast?
Feel like i'm in crazy competition with the past
That's why i gotta ask

Is anything i'm doing brand new?
Brand new, brand new
Is anything i'm doing brand new?
Brand new, brand new, brand new, oh

This here is something personal
Highly doubt this feeling is reversible
Knowledge is pain and that is why it hurts to know
That you attempt to hide and put mistakes aside

So i don't ever question you and damn
I can't even find the perfect brush
So i can paint what's going through my mind
Racing against myself but i'm a couple steps behind
That's why i gotta ask

Is anything i'm doing brand new?
Brand new, brand new
Is anything i'm doing brand new?
Brand new, brand new, brand new oh

Is anything i'm doing brand new?
No no no no no
Is everything i'm doing too late?
Late late late late

Did he take your clothes off just like this?
Did he give you loving just like this?
Did you spend the night in his bed on the very first date?
Tell me baby am i too late?


Is anything i'm doing brand new?
Brand new, brand new
Show me if this is brand new
Oh yeah yeah yeah

What's Happening To Me?

Hot as hell today. [right now it's about 91] Ok, so i really don't know where i stand as...i don't know, myself. I don't feel like myself anymore, like i don't know what's happening to me. Imma be honest, i strongly dislike my life with a passion. I don't like the way anything is going. Everything i say is wrong. I state an opinion, it's wrong [even though we're entitled to it]. Like what is the problem? I feel irritated an on edge every second of the day, and looks to be very unhealthy. Like i feel little as to no love anymore and it scares me. I'm starting not to care, not to be believe in me [or anyone else]..like since when? Where's the confidence gone? I've never felt like this, and i can't seem to find the source to the problem. As Mr. Pearce says, "Find the full solution." But where? I can't seem to find it, but yet, this issue is eating me alive. What's happening to me?..

Which One's Your Favorite?

Let's Keep It Real! Yall Need To Hear This..

Inna bad mood, so excuse my vibes.----- This day is just really dragging. I'm tired of the continuous complaining, and nagging, and hearing how i can be a better person, or how i have so many issues. You know, just hop off my life and search for one of your own, iite? Since when has anyone ever really give a damn about me? I'm not anybody important, a person who can easily be be erased and replaced, my famous phrase.. Get out of my life already. Stop acting like you love me or care because the best thing you can do is leave. Leave me like my father has and still does. Leave like my grandfather left me back in June 2009. Just go, and i hope the door hits you on the way out. I want my problems to just go away and vanish. Fall off the face of the Earth. Leave. Let me make things right. On a seperate note..
FACT: If i say there's nothing wrong and clearly there is..just leave it alone. Obviously i'm not wishing to share it with you because it's nothing for you to worry about and that's in general.
Like everybody does that to me. Just leave me alone to think about MY problems. Everybody just wants to be involved and i feel like it's a waste of my breath to retell a story that quite frankly, i don't feel like talking about! Just leave it. Simple.
FACT: Everybody that i know gets angry over the simplest little things.
Why? Because you're not getting your way? Is that it? Aww well get over it toots. It's time to slip off the pull-ups and step into some panties and boxers because you're a big kid now. I handle situations as if i'm the bigger person which in most cases, i am. I threw off the pull-ups long time ago. Got them grown woman panties on now. Well, now it's your turn! Maturity is a big key in life and is a vital asset to your social life.


Point blank, period, end of story, thanks for shopping, & come again!
Don't like it? Funny, because i didn't ask you what you liked, did i? It's what yall need to hear. Person to Person.

KEEP IT LOCKED!

I've been busy lately rather it's chilling with my boo, or into my school work, but you know how it is. Like the title it says, KEEP IT LOCKED because a lot of things will be coming your way soon, just give me some time and i'll give yall what yall been waiting for..

My skinnies stay skinny like i starve my fabric. "Like omg, why ya jeans so tight?!"
Psh, they like cricketz to me. :-P

*I rock skinnies, and Polo's*

Stay Tuned!

Coming up with some beats, which reminds me, i have band tomorrow! [Random] I wish i had two periods of band, so i can work on my percussion beats. Since i'm not allowed in the studio anymore [sigh], i'm on my own making music but they missing out on my major rappin skills. Thats ok though, TyTy gonna let me in his studio soon. He's heard my sample freestyle so he know what i'm about. Tryna get my bestie/my smiley on a track cause thats what we do & how we be doing it. I mean, i sing cause i got the triple threat, but i'm shy when it comes to singing. I mean, you have to be with me in the car or stand near my bathroom door when i'm in the shower to hear my beautiful voice. But if you're special enough, i can make an exception. Yes, we are gonna be famous possibly. Until then, imma keep writing songs and making beats. But stay tuned!

Bestest, you be my ride or die. :-*



**New Song Coming Soon** Keep it locked, forever cuffed!

Freestylin'

See i'll do it for you, if you did it for me
Today we was macking underneath a shaded tree
Waiting till the big hand reached the three..
And then you called your cab and left me be
Knowing that i wouldn't see you till the next day
My heart sunk down and the feeling went away
I wanna "Be Where You Are", as Trey would say
But we can't for we both went our seperate ways
Baby, you didn't really know that i could rap
But i gee'd you and you fell for my trap
Yeah, i knew that line would make you laugh
In school, you'll probably find a way to get me back
But that's ok, see, you love me anyway
It's just this silly game that i love to play
I hope you play too, if that's ok
Fallin in love with you more..day by day


**First freestyle**
Tell me if i'm good at this, and be honest!

Bran Nu

Look for Brandy's alter ego "Bran Nu" new to the rap scene. It's basically Brandy finding that inner rapper within her. So check her out on Timbaland's new album, The Shock Value II. She's featured in songs such as:

Meet in Tha Middle
&
Symphony

Also check out her new show on VH1 called Brandy and Ray J: The Family Business. Dope show.

Birthdays to Tests

I'm not sure what to blog about today. Just checking in with my peoples. Seeing what's good. State test tomorrow, thinking about spending my time after school with you know who.. The last time was something special, i think we actually started bonding and connecting and got that alone time that we needed. Oh yeah! Quick before i forget, happy birthday wishes goes out to my little cousin in VA. Enjoy your 8th birthday Niq Niq! Love you babe! And happy 21 birthday goes out to my other "hubby" Chris Brown! Hold it down bruh and "take your time" for me and the wifey haha! So i think that's about it, that was an innie by the way.. Writing a song later, might post it. So look out for that, and wish me tomorrow on that math state test.

11.17 Babes will always be ^
Cousin Niq^
C Breezy^
VA^
Mr. Pearce^

May Already?!

It's May, and you may know, this is not the best month in the world. For one thing, it's the month before June and we all know June is total chaos for me and the fam. May... let's see. Niquans (little cousin in VA^) birthday on the 5th he'll be 8 along with Chris Brown's he'll be 21. State test the 6th and the 7th. Gramma and Grandpa's anniversary the 22 :'(. They've been married for over 40 years, I can only imagine how depressed she'll be that day. Plus, their anniversary is on my grandpa's moms birthday so double that depression. Then the family photo on the 30th so we have the cousins driving in from Va^, Ohio, and allat. [Sigh] How can we take it? I have a lot not to look forward to, and the time won't be slowing down. My family can't settle down. I can't settle down. We're all on edge and the month just started.. What to do now?
S.O.S

Anthony hang in there cousin! Remember, you have 3 children to support and a family that loves you, don't give up on us now..