Old Smiley, Welcome Back!

Back to normal baby! I love it! I know why, won't state it out loud. Lunch was SO FREAKIN HOT YO! Dudes feenin but can't get it, so sorry cuz i got it you can't have it! I'm so..well not happy, but smug. Life treatin me good again. But seriously though, i gotta learn to stop being so sensitive and be...DARING. Imma make the last three days at school enjoyable. 13 in about 2 weeks and I'm scared to death of being a teenager. Do you know how many body changes are gonna start now? Well hey, about 4-5 more years and i will be SATISFIED. So excited..so forget all the things i was sayin at the beginning of the week. I turned a new page, and imma turn it up. Top 5 songs that i dedicate to you: I May Never Find-CB (the only song that will actually make me cry because it's true), Down-CB, Whose Girl Is That-Cb, Right Now-DK, Weak-SWV. But mostly i may never find because it makes me cry..don't know why. So much stuff to get off my chest. Can't sleep at night..don't know how much i can take. And then the winter vacation. Sigh..everything is gonna build up, watch. All i can say is don't be afraid to talk to me. I wanna know why CERTAIN people always get nervous around me. I don't even do nothing. I'm just me. So like don't be afraid to kick it with me. Talk to me every now and then, heart to heart. A lot of things peeps should know i love honesty and sweetness. No fakes no dubbs. Keep it 100. And have a sense of humor. Don't be so nervous, i like to vibe and see the real you. Don't be so shy. Love those who are close, keep it 100, and Yaz has love for you.

"New Smiley"

Sadly won't be in school tomorrow, know you'll miss me. :P My mood went from kinda happy, annoyed, insulted, then straight up pissed all because of you. Why you make fun of me, i don't know. Starting not to care because you will be sorry. I find it funny how you want me to come to school tomorrow, but you make fun of me like there's no tomorrow. Why do i hang out with you? I don't know. Why i allow you to treat me this way? I don't know. Why you want me to show up for school tomorrow? You just wanna insult me as always and why should i make you feel better while hurting me? Does it make you to feel good, cuz that's all i wanna know. What did i do to you? If it's about what i said about Shy or Serod, it's not that deep. They have nothing to do with you and it doesn't interfere with anything. You asked me a question and i answered you truthfully. Isn't that what you wanted? Like i said before, you need to figure out what you want. You are not the same person that i loved so much back in sixth grade. What happened to you? It's like you've changed. You went from totally selfless, nice, sweet, down to earth Smiley to insulting, rude, and mean Smiley in an instant. What's going on with you? Talk to me because you never do. We haven't had a honest deep conversation since sixth grade. I can't believe middle school got to you. I always knew this would happen. "The New Smiley." And guess what? I'm not liking her as much if you've noticed. I still love you so much, but...you're different.

Mixed Feelings Sometimes..

It hurts sometimes ya know? It's like you try, to fail. I shut my mouth try not to comment, but you crackin on me in front of people and that's not even cool. Why? You say you're like my sister, or that i love you, you're my bestie, yet you turn around and do some mess like this. There's a clear line between being funny, joking around, or just going overboard. I don't even goof around like that anymore! What the hell is your problem?! Yes, it hurts don't you see that? Then you WANT stuff from me. You need to figure things out for yourself. What exactly do you want? But if i say something, i am way outta line right? Oh, and that mess you pulled about how i never apologize is complete BULL CRAP! Remember over the summer? With the whole lying and Tayler thing? Who exactly apologized? Um, ME. When i hurt your feelings, what do i say besides I'm sorry. So let's be real here, i NEVER APOLOGIZE. Get out my face with that crap. You were the one who told me i say "I'm sorry" too much. And I'm sorry for whatever, rather i hurt your feelings, or crossed a line. Whatever! But you can never say i never say sorry. I'm not angry with you, but you really make me feel unappreciated sometimes. You have some weird sides to you. But can i ask one favor? Can you show the sides i love the most? Cuz I'm a little heart broken right now. And best believe, I STILL LOVE YOU BESTIE. I don't give up that easy.

I May Never Find..

Today was live, just like Friday. For many reasons, but.. This is hard. So the only way i can fully get my feelings out is through songs. Writing songs are kinda boring for me, singing them with feeling, not so much. That's so easy! I've been singing since age 4 without classes and to have a voice this good without classes is a gift for me. At least i have some kind of talent, something that makes me look good. I don't sing in public, but if you catch me in my room, you hear an angel. To sing with that much emotion in me is just..hard because it can only explain how i feel at the moment. I feel smug, happy, and dreamy right now. I'm in my faraway place so what else can you ask for? Songs of the day: I May Never Find- Chris Brown, Weak- SWV And just remember, "Oh baby wuz yo name?" :-P

My Brown Skin Girl..

Thinking back, i have hurt one of the most important people in my life hundreds of times..And it's crazy how i had the chance to get so many chances for me not to screw it up again. If it was up to me, i would've slapped me across the face and said "Goodbye, just LEAVE" But they didn't, and that says a lot about that person.. See i have low tolerance unless well you know, you're special, but other than that..LEAVE. But wow.. So all i have to say is..I am so sorry. I have hurt you countless times, and taking things out on you for absolutely no reason? Uh, no that just doesn't cut it for me. I can't believe i was hurting you, and me for pointless reasons. How idiotic of me to act so foolish. Saying sorry doesn't make it ok. I say that just a little too much and one day, i really will be sorry. It's just, my family has screwed me up in so many ways, and next thing you know i hurt the people around me. So please don't feel unappreciated because that's so not the case. You are like one of the best friends, best sah Smiley i have ever had in my life! You are the only person i can talk to and you listen and care. So yeah you the "best i ever had." So these songs are dedicated to you look them up.. Brown Skin Girl- CB, Take My Time CB.. Love you Smiley!

YUP!

:-*! Nuff said! Nah, but seriously.. Finally! After the dude ranch, graduation, the long and lonely summer, I'M HAPPY. I GOT IT! Ideas man! Whooo! You have no idea! Soo happy, and this is like the ultimate innie so if you don't know that's your problem isn't it? But wow..hm. Nice day today, odee live. I'm happy, soo it is what it is. Song of the day (3) Weak- SWV, Take My Time- Chris Brown ft. Tank, Brown Skin Girl- Chris Brown ft. Rock City & Sean Paul.. Yep, that's how much of a mood i'm in! Duces! :-*(Mwaaaaaaah) Dew- the one you know who loves...

Lost Without You

My hair is finally straight again. Which is good is some ways, bad in others..rather not talk about it. Two topics of the day-Emptiness & Anger Management. OK, so you know that feeling when you don't see like one of the most special people in your life, and you just feel lost and empty without them. I had that feeling today. Not for the first time, but it felt like it because every moment feels like the first. You get so used to a person and to not see them for a few days feels weird. Question is, does that person feel the same way? Well, anger management is not very easy to deal with. The thing is for me is that once you get me mad, imma stay mad the whole day so just forget about it. People don't realize i bite my tongue to save you from the embarrassment I'm trying so hard not to provide for you, yet you keep drolling on about one subject i can really care less about! Not only do you look stupid, you just gave me the benefit of the doubt. Now are you happy? When people wanna curse me out, i sit there and listen. If only they knew how ridiculous they sounded from the other end. Like I've been saying, go on ahead and nag your head off because you're only hurting yourself in the long run!Dust your shoulders off, keep it real. Stay cool, calm and collective.

Um..Bringing Sexy Back? Maybe..

Got my new nerd glasses and all that good stuff. Rather not talk about family, not really feeling it..not liking them very much. OMG! It's snowing outside! For the first time this year it is snowing. Or as John would call it "Frozen pee is falling from the sky." Anyways, I've been looking on point lately. "I'm bringing sexy back" like JT. Loving it! Found out many things.. 1. Big Mike likes me! Whoa whoa whoa, Mike? Lil munchkin Mike? But why? 2. My bestie told my secret that I've been holding since 5th grade? I heard it from Kiara and i don't really appreciate that she knows that one little detail about me. Not even cool. That can expose things and ruin my rep! Smh.. of course i deny it! Like what the heck do i look like anyways.. and 3. Today is Lisa's birthday woo! How nice! Amiya has experienced her mommy's first birthday and she's only a week old! Aw!--Sigh..life is life. Can't love it, can't hate it. Hate my house, rather be at school 24/7 but whatever..Gotta be happy. Trying anyway.. Love my lil big sis as always, love my baby cousin, love my new glasses, love me!

Pinch Me, I Must Be Dreaming!

Her name is Amaiyah Harmoney Lykes, and like the cutest little cousin i have ever seen in my life. (Well you know, besides her sister Saniyah and my baby Niq Niq) But you get the point. It's been a while since my family has had a real BABY again. I was the first one, then Nay Nay, then Natalia etc.. But wow! She was born in Brooklyn Hospital aka the hospital where her Uncle Ivie works in. I'm so curious as to how this one will say my name. I've been called Yah Yah, Yie, Hey? [shrug] But i hope i get yet another cute nickname from this one. I like the nicknames from babies cuz it's so cute how they don't know how to say your name yet. My family calls me everything..Pumpkin, Pooh, Baby Girl, Ma, Mommy, Puddin Pie, and my personal favorite Slim... And my friends call me Yaz, Yazzy, Cousin, Sister, LEGS, and my other favorite that NOBODY CAN CALL ME A DAY IN THEIR LIVES IS DEW! i JUST LOVE THAT NAME! A very special friend named me that. Sigh, things are looking up finally. My bestie is cool, school is a breeze, and..the rest as they say is history ;P I love when i don't have to cry myself to sleep at night, when i know my life is where it should be..so. I'm just drinking some eggnog. Shout to Amaiyah, SMILEY *love ya*, and everybody else out there. Dew out! :-* <----Kisses!

Random Depression

I'm so crazy that i had to blog twice today! Ugh, i hate this feeling of insanity and depression! I want..to be free. Like this is so hard to explain. I have been locked up in my house all day and it's like...you miss things, people, life. I miss like my number one bestie right now and like..OMG! This always is problem. I did everything today. Listened to music, watched videos, aimed, danced, sang, rocked out, called people, eat. What else am i supposed to do?! I'm so freaking depressed now.. It's like an emotion that's hard to describe. You're mad, sad, angry, annoyed, and affectionate all in one jam packed emotion. I have no idea what to do with myself. I don't wanna go to my grammas because that is not my happy place anymore. I go even crazier over there. I for darn sure i do not want my father because all he does is tell me how old i'm getting then we have our awkward father and daughter talks and moments. Like ok dad i get it i'm older and you want to be the only man in my life. Yeah daddy i get it, you want me to be single for the rest of my life! NOT! I think i need my old cousin back. Nay Nay was everything although now we have a weird relationship, but still! That's like my twin. She understands me other than my #1 bestie. sigh..i'm losing it. Let it be Monday already!I miss school for once! Yazzy Wazzy is outtie. DEUCES TO MY CUTIES :-* <----Kisses

Top of My Game!

Awwww shoot! I got another brat in the family! But this one is gonna be so cute! Another girl of course, her name is Amaya or however you spell her name. Her sister named her yet she's only 5 herself. Anyways, what can i say? Hope she's a PYT! Life just gets sorta better i guess. Thankful to be alive and just live life to the fullest. That's all you can ever do ya know? Mom is well mom. I avoid her so really i can care less. My daddy is being his tough rican self. How typically normal of him.. Tell me how Ivan keeps like flaking out on the family? Like, are we that bad because i know we can be..well not me. It's all good because you know why? I was the entertainment yesterday night! Did the perfect MJ impression in the middle of Grammas living room! And what Ivie?! Top that for Christmas! Drunk off that eggnog you already know...drunks do anything ;P "You make my love come down!" Yazzy Wazzy is outtie! DUCES. :-* <----Kisses

Feeling Great

I so have to be on here more, not like i forget it, but i just have to have more time on my hands. So...really not much going on nowadays. Oh! I wore this cute new vest today, and it was so Demi Lovato-ish. How cool was that?! And i love saying "Shh don't tell noooobody!" Like i love saying that! With the voice and all. And lately, I've been feeling so loved, but only by certain peoples... Oh well, they love me right? What can go wrong? =D

Twisted Kind of Days..

Today was supposed to be like the best day of my life.. NOT! Today was wack.. See, this kinda stuff would never happen at Lincoln! There's more privacy and alone time. Nowadays, i never get a break. People are always on me or around me and it's really annoying. I mean grades can NEVER be a problem for me, but everything else is. Alone time is MY alone time and is not supposed to be shared. Sometimes i just wish i could be isolated from the rest of the world and just pursue what best makes me happy. Don't get me wrong i love my friends and everything, but i can't be with them all the time. Just back up and give me my space is all i ask. No disrespect. And thanks to them and stupid school, today was the worst day of my life.. How do people actually expect me to be happy? I haven't been happy since 6/11/09. I had real freedom, and that day was called the Dude Ranch. The place where i had quality time before and after it was over..

Sesame In Da Street..

That's better now! Like i was saying, do you remember these guys? Well, i do. This was my show back in the day. (way back when) I loved this show so much that i broke the tape and i started to cry, but it was my fault...

Remember them? OK, OK maybe not like that.. Lol, but i thought these guys were funny!! Ha ha they look so evil, and Grover has a cigarette in his mouth?!?!? Hahahaha.. Funny!

Go On, Don't Be Scared.. We Going Full Speed Ahead!

Everyday, things seem to get deeper with your piers and besties ya know? Wow... Tomorrow I'm gonna go hang out with some besties down at my old school. I'm hoping it's gonna be live, and not suckish. I'm expecting to see odee people as well, but knowing me, things never go as planned. We'll see, and I'll try to blog about what happens if i can. I try to keep you up to date about what goes on in my life. I know you are probably thinking i have issues, but trust me i know people's lives who are 10x worse. Imagine that! Haven't been sleeping lately because SOME of my "reality is finally better than my dreams," but that's not too often. I have a lot of things going on my mind which makes it hard to fall asleep at night. If only i had control of the things that go on around me, and to control people's movement and actions, i would have had everything i ever wanted or needed by now.. I want so many things, and just forget about the "impossible", or the "rules and regulations." Like seriously, are those are what we really are afraid of in life? Live long and prosper as Captain Spock would say..(I'm not a Trekkie) Don't worry about the little things that can come up, live in the moment, and be like Nike and "just do it." Full speed ahead..

Everything About Me...

Everyday it seems as if I'm starting to find myself more and more ya know? Like, you pull out those family photos and you start to realize who you and your family is.. My family is straight from down south, what can i say? I mean they are from Virginia (VA stand up), North Carolina(Hollister stand up) and Georgia (Augusta to be exact). Does that make me southern? Uhhhhhh, NO! I am straight New York, i can't even relate to the southerners. I've been down there and it is so awesome i must say, but of course i was there for a limited time. Funeral go figure, had to miss three days of school..you get the point. Where does this leave me, though? I still have no idea what or who i am anymore. I feel like I've lost everything just about, and it never gets better. Don't let my smile and somewhat clear head get to you. Everyday you may see me and say there is nothing wrong. But deep inside, my mind is screaming and crying at me for the things I've seen and went through. As a kid, i never thought anything like this would ever happen to me. My life was flawless then, yet gradually my life was getting worse..without me even knowing. This year, I've lost friends (besties), 6 family members, a father who had a heart attack and lives, and most importantly i have lost myself in the making. To me there is no such thing as happiness unless I'm with the right people.. God bless the people i am happy with. I love them and can't afford to lose them because they are all i have left. I love you! "Nothing is ever promised tomorrow today, this is it"

I'm Only Me

Why do people insist on getting at me? Is there like some sign on my head that say"Yo, this is yaz aka dew, get at me, get all up in my face." Like who the hell are you? I'm nobodies bitch and definitely not yours. People should so get there priorities straight and stop tryna put other people down for there own guilty pleasures. Besides i don't believe in being ugly, i call it "not appealing to the human eye." lol I'm like totally serious.. Really, I'm a great person once you get to know me. At least i think so, no cockiness intended. The jealousy is really getting old as well. I am human, i have the same thing you have. Underneath the good clothes, matchy shoes, curly hair, skinny jeans i am a human like every other human on this earth. Now is that so wrong? And i hate being known as the "teacher lover." It's really not my fault i pay attention in class, get my work done and have a great personality. That all comes naturally. Teachers have their own decisions when it comes to liking a student. It's not like I'm some wizard or something. Far from it actually. I was going more for a dazzling vampire, but i guess that works, too.

Love Is Deep, Hits You Hard..

Do people enjoy pissing me off? Everybody does that, and i do mean EVERYBODY. Why must you be so ignorant, and get it through you guy's thick empty heads that i will get you back. Like PEOPLE LIKE TO SAY, "PAY BACK IS A -----." (I would never say that where everybody can see it) But seriously.. You've got the wrong person to mess with. So i have strikes do i? Listen i will be nobody but myself. I try my best, to come to a result of continuous failing. The simple trail and error method. It comes to a point where i just don't care. Why do people enjoy quiting so early, and then play strikes like we playing like the Yankees in the world series? OK, that may be how you do it, but in my family i wanna see you try. At least put in your best effort dammit! I try so hard, do people ever realize that?! I know you...like.. Middle school can bring out peoples true colors by the way. It shows who you really are. As for me, i will never change, only because i can't except change myself. I don't know, my life is screwed up, and when you lose the people you love it hurts even more...

Lincoln Was Live

I must say i miss Lincoln so much! Longfellow will never live up to the awesome memories at Lincoln, it doesn't feel the same. That was like the cherry to my oh so juicy chocolate sundae, or the the smile to a smiley, or the chocolate to the chocolate covered strawberry. What was made there will always remain there. I miss the good times, crazy times, the awkward times, and even though special times. (Trust me we had lots) The vibes that we felt there where irreplaceable. I love it! I love you Lincoln!!

Beware of 2009!!

Honestly, 2009 is officially marked my death year. Like why the hell is everybody going so fast? I LOVE these people and cancer is taking over, and heart attacks, and other diseases and random sicknesses.. What's next, ME? And how exactly will I go? I'm not that easily broken, i give up a mean fight... "Tell me what you got to break down the walls, you just might need dynamite!" Just like Demi.. Life is crap, and if nobody will see this, try witnessing 5-6 deaths this year. I'm sick of it. Yes, this messes me up in so many ways. Mentally and emotionally. It's killing me inside, and NOBODY will see that, nobody can understand the burning pain i feel inside.. If only i can relive the moments i had with my grandfather - priceless. I loved every minute of it, nothing can top that without a doubt. I love(ed) him so much, he WAS my father to me, since my real one just comes and goes like turning seasons. I would do anything to get him back. By the way, today is my grandmothers birthday. Wanna know something? She's dead too! That's my mom's mom. My grandmother! Jeanette Lynch..amazing. I'm tired of the trial-and-error method. I give up, i'm in no control of what the Lord will hit my family with next. I love them, they sorta love me i guess.. They are a part of me and who i am. Pull through daddy! Don't give up on me, be strong for me..please.

Proud to be A PR...

Why do people love us so much? A lot of things people say is the unbelievable curly hair, or how our skin is so smooth and cool looking, or how all of us are cute, or we have the cutest dimples, or just that fact that we are cool. Whatever, I'm just proud to be Puerto Rican. : D

Idols (Part 2)

Love his music and style.

Well.... It's Miss Keri Baby, what can I say?

I love Chris Brown no questions asked. Don't care really...

Alright so here is the deal, I love Drake, his music, his style all that good stuff. BUT! He looks so much like my cousin IVAN so i admire him so much. I wonder ya know?...

Look Who's Back...

Drop It Low ~ Esther Dean ft. Chris Brown I Can Transform Ya ~ Chris Brown ft. Lil Wayne & Swizz Beats Back To The Crib ~ Juelz Satana ft. Chris Brown These are the new songs so far I've heard from Chris Brown.. Check it out lames..

Where Is My Smiley?

Wait, none of these Smiley's are mine, oh well, these are cute, too! I love my Smileys!

Calling All Idols To The Stage Please..

My idols with the biggest styles!

Work It Girl? Snap For The Kids!

Look, to be honest, i love them. People always label these "different" people in a negative way. It went from the gender biz, to the skin color, and where we come from, drop it! There is nothing wrong with gay people, there are human just like we are! Why push them out of that? OK, so they dress different, talk different, act different, but does that change the fact that they are nothing but human? Let them be who they wanna be, and drop this crap about how "colorful" they are. There is nothing to be afraid of! They are people, treat them like it!

Rock Those Jammies

Even my dude Spongebob rocked his jammies, don't hate.

Stalking, What's The Deal?

Why me? Do you know how many beautiful "honeys" are out there for you to chase, and you chase me? To me, I'm not a "honey" boo boo, especially not yours! I'm twelve, you were like.... 23 if not that old! My dude, you were old enough to drive, you were driving! What the hell?! OK, and my family's excuse is, "You look older than what you really are, honey." Don't you "honey" me! Some men can't help but to stare at a girl that they think got the"fatty", or some other disrespectful asset to a woman. They look for all the wrong things. I bet that's what my stalker saw in me, but i kinda gave it to him, though. I was wearing bermuda shorts, i guess showing my legs is a bad thing these days. It wasn't that showy to begin with, nor was it tight, so what the heck is the problem?! Am i "just so damn cute" to some men? Do they look past the fact that they are too old for me? Do they care? I know what some guys have on their minds right off the bat, which is why as ladies we have to protect ourselves, and know how to handle certain situations. Lucky for me my mom was there to save the day with a casual, "she's twelve, too young for you!" add lib. I was grateful/annoyed/embarrassed to have my mother YELL that in public. So long for having a boyfriend when i get older!

Random Things I Would Wear..

I want the gloves she has on... MJ and a little CB.

I love Demi's style and fashion. Definitely an idol of mine.

Louis Vuitton all red. True Blood baby! Cute, i would actually wear it!

Geek Is In!

Their geeky glasses, but i love them. I don't believe that it's made for just anybody. It's made for the people who know how to wear them right. I want these.

The Greatest Man Ever!

Happy Birthday to the King of Pop! Age: 51

The Higher The Better

Would you like a pair of skinny jeans to go with those high top Nikes?

Demi Has the Style! Mind If I Steal It?

This is a cute outfit! Love the vest! And skinny jeans? Are you tryna tease me? lol

I Might Bring Back the Black Shades...

These are a taste of some glasses i may pick up, yes i know they are hotness.

Ed Hardy Might Run My Life!

Ed Hardy is gonna run my life! The designs are freakin crazy! What do you think about the sneakers? Pretty dope, huh?

Aaliyah

R.I.P Aaliyah aka my bigest idol. We love you always!

Aaliyah

Aaliyah has to be my biggest idol of all time, aside from the great Michael Jackson. I dress like her, and my style of music is almost exact, it's scary. Today, as you all may know, is the day she passed, due to a plane crash while leaving the Bahamas. When i first heard the news, i wasn't sure what to think at first. What didn't help was that i was about five years old, and my sister was just born. Nobody was really expecting this day to come so soon, but it did. People across the world grieved when they heard the news. Although she was only 22 when she died, Aaliyah came a long way as far as the music/acting industry goes. I hope she rests in peace with the Lord, along with my grandfather. I know they are in good hands, and watching over us. We love you Aaliyah, and you will always be in our hearts!

Fedora!

Yes sir... I'm gonna pick me up one of these. Cuz we do it MJ style!

The Obsession, Dang and i Thought Mariah Had It Bad!

Well, i don't really have a topic for today. Wait.. yes i do, obsession! How do you deal with that? I have a few people in my life with that have that kind of problem. Quite scary really. And what makes it even scarier is that they are girls! This particular girl I've known for a while. We both went to the same after school (( YMCA )). She was my first friend there, she guided me in the arms of comfort. OK, cool beans, right? As the years went on, it was like she became attached. A little too attached. You see, some people become to comfortable in the " friend zone" and they think they are automatic besties. Hell nah! I don't know you like that my dude! I only see you occasionally and you think we are tight like that (( crossing my fingers )). Just recently i seen the chick twice at the pool out of sheer coincidence i'm guessing. But may i remind you it was two back to back days. Is she stalking me? Impossible! Every since then, she's been hitting my phone up, and blowing my aim off the charts. Should i block her? I think so. Ignoring does absolutely nothing for me. She'll continue to do what she does, but i will not let it get out of hand. The problem will be resolved soon enough. I can't have people like that in my life. S.O.T.D Digital Girl ~ Jamie Foxx ft. Kanye West, The Dream, and Drake

L.O.V.E.. So Big For Such a Small Word

Hey party peoples. I have an interesting topic for the day..love! I mean come on, who doesn't know about that four letter word that can easily capture anybody's attention? Well, i have to admit, it's a pretty magical and powerful word. You can't admit it to a person, but you know the truth and what needs to be done in order to love and know what it's about. You fall head over heals for them, dream and fantasize about the future with them. People may go to extremes with the whole stalking thing. Personally, it's not cute at all because then you have a real problem. You get a weird tingly feeling when you're with them, and maybe even sometimes choke up on your own words. Embarrassing, yes. Cute, maybe. Stupid, no. Everybody has a weird way of showing it weither it's acting crazy, showing off, or making fun of that person for a long while. Show it how you'd like, but as long as it's love at the end of the day. Your crush would finally catch on to your little plan and meet you half way. S.O.T.D End of the Road ~ Boyz II Men

Chillin + Movies + Music = Odii Fun

Well, i'm about to be outtie. I'm going to the pool in a few. I'm just blogging to say hi and to keep you posted on what goes on in life. Gradually making friends on Youtube, so thats good. I saw Orphan with Tayler, Raylynn, and Giovanni in Cross County. Wow that movie was freaky, gruesome, weird, bloody, violent, and funny. I recommend for everybody to see it, if you're not scared of course. We had a blast! Well, that's it. I'm signing out. Outtie. Go see Orphan and cop that album Loso's Way. S O T D Eveyday, Everything, Everywhere ~ Fabolous ft. Keri Hilson and Ryan Leslie

Being Random is My Game!!

I've been rocking out to my new Guitar Hero game. Dope as hell! Love it. That's like the only thing i can do at this point because it's raining outside- AGAIN! Shocker! But um.. yeah that's all i'm doing right now. Sorry i have nothing else to blog about. My schedual for school is beyond retarted, i don't even wanna talk about it. Being at school for 7:55 is freakin ridiculous! Then the teachers wanna yell at you about sleeping in class. Honestly, can you blame us half the time? Well, that's it my fellow bloggers! Remember, don't anything stupid while your parents aren't home. They have super parent senses, they know when you're up to no good. ((random)) Peace out! S O T D Misissippi Queen ~ Mountain (( from guitar hero)) Look it up if you don't know!!

Me Being Me!

Lately, i've been making videos on my phone. Cool and all. Nothing is really new so far. Staying tuned with Jinc Ent. and the Young Ranger$. If you don't know, you can check them out on youtube. They're jerking groups who can dance their butts off! There are actually serveral jerking groups on youtube, but those are the two groups i liked to keep posted with. I'm actually in a jerking group myself! ((Geeked Freakzz)) In the making! Me and a couple of my besties are in it and other people i don't know and haven't met yet. Shout out to Jinc Ent. and Young Ranger$ for the inspiration! Shout out to Evan and Anaja for making Geeked Freakzz possible! Dancing is our passion, and i always dreamed of being in a dancing group with some of my friends. The dream is in the making! But don't be fooled now! Dancing isn't my only passion. Trust me, i love music, fashion, and clothes. I do believe style and fashion is what you make it. Style and fashion is about your own personal taste and how you present it. Make it your own. Even wear it how you like! Me, my typical dress code is a graphic tee, skinny jeans, and a dope pair of Nikes. Go figure! But that's for casual dressing. My style varies from time to time. But hey can you blame me? I'm a typical seventh grade girl who made fashion and style all her own.

Back To School.. Clothes and Classes

Not feeling to hot right now. But i figured since i haven't blogged in two days, i mind as well do it now. Well, it's only in a matter of weeks that i will be starting seventh grade a.k.a my middle school doom. I mean, who isn't scared the first day of a new school. I guess i'm mostly afraid of not knowing where my classes are and afraid i won't make it there in time. I'm really not up to be embarassed my first day of MIDDLE school. Along with the fact that i have to make new friends all over again. Great. I figure just be myself and let my style stand out. Maybe that'll draw enough attention to myself that will allow people to confront me and say something like " Nice nikes, where can i get those?", or " I love your shirt, where'd you get it?" To be honest most of my clothes come from New York & Company, Wet Seal, Aeropastle, and Forever 21. I'm really big on how my clothes look to me, and how i where them. My might where the same outfit twice ((not in a row or in the same week)), but in different ways. I just hope that stands out in my new school. I have an unique style, so i'm sure it will. In a good way of course.

My Current Life At This Moment

When you fall into the deepset pit of dispair, how do you wiggle yourself out of it? It's like YOUR stuck on the mouse trap, and your the mouse. I find myself in numorous predicaments that confuse me because i don't know how i got in them. Usually i just throw my hands up and say, " hey i have absolutely nothing to do with this, it's all up to you."But lately, it's kind of hard to do that. There's always something to throw me off course, and the next thing you know, i'm stuck in the middle of a problem. But that's just the daily life of me. There's never a day where trouble doesn't blows my way. That's something that can't be cured. Kind of like LIVER CANCER. Boy, does that sound familiar to me. I lost so many things in this year alone. I am just curious when all of this will come to a halt. And when it does, i will be so grateful.

Hmmmm ucall urself a friend???!!

Today was ok i guess. But what had to ruin my day, was the fact that i come home, go on aim, and then check my e-mails. I get this e-mail from a "close friend of mine" (if u wanna call it that), saying how i'm changing and crap like that. I don't wanna hear it! The situation was squashed long time ago. Why is everybody on my case about it now? It really shows who your real friends are. I wanna give a shout out to my friend Anaja. She held it down for me the whole time. She my ride or die bestie at this point. I love her so much ( no homo)! By the way, there are 3 parts to a story: you have your side, the other persons side, and the truth. Don't believe everything you here. And remember who you have known longer.

I posted a comment on Diggy's blog! But um... today I was looking great in my new outfit. Orange tee, silver shades, orange/ coral sneakers, and blue shorts with orange and pink stripes. It was crazy! But you know I look my best everyday, just because. When back to school starts, I'm going to get MAD high tops and shades. It's all about the Wet Seal, Charade, Forever 21, Footlocker, and Target(etc). I have to look mad fly for my first year of middle school. Dun, dun, dun! lol.. Well it's like almost midnight, I'm about to be out. Got to take care of business in the morning. Peace out. luv u.

Obsessed about Eminem? I think so.

Do you think Mariah Carey's video obsessed is about rapper Eminem? Well, I do! In the video, which was awesome by the way, she is dressed like a rapper. Her lyrics is what gets me the most. She talks about how the guy did drugs, stalked her, and is fed-up with her current husband Nick Cannon. Just recent anyway, Eminem and Nick had some beef. Which makes me wonder.. who was that video about? She even said so herself on 106 and Park that she had a nickname for the rapper, and her song "Obsessed" was about some man in her life. Interesting... Eminem, if this is about you, why you obsessed with Mariah? Haha.. Lol I'm out, peace.

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Teasing? Don't be a whimp!

Ok, so dealing with teasing. It's a hard thing to ignore, but you have to try. Even if it just gets under your skin so bad, ignore it. You have to. Why? You can say, or do something you regret and then what? Exactly, that's what I thought! You will find yourself in a sticky situation that you will not be able to dig yourself out of. Take my word on that one. I've been there, and done that. Just resently as a matter of fact. This person could be a relative, or just a plain old friend, maybe a bully. Who cares? You should try to confront them and see what happens. You never know unless you try. It may work, it may not. At least you did your part, and you're the bigger person at the end of the day. That's what really matters. Keep ya head up, stay confident, and strong.

Besties? Are you sure?

What can i say, besties will be besties. But once they've given up, what else can i do? Really. Like i gave it my all. Why should i buss my behind to be with u and spend all my time with you. I have other friends as well, and just can't neglect them. Like for real. I've known this so called bestie for 13 years, if not that long. We slowly grew away from each other. What can i say. We both have other friends. Besties will be besties for as long as they want. Sure we were there for each other, but remember that was the PAST. We couldn't be besties for that long. Come on, you have to be inhuman to be besties for a very long time. I gave it my all, and sorry have we had falll, but we just can't be besties anymore. I'm in freakin middle school for god sakes. Let it go. I'm not a horrible friend. Not at all. But don't push me. In the end, i guess you can call us friends, but not close. Honestly, we don't even talk that much, but whatever. I did what i had to do, and whats done is done.

Young Love...Maybe or definetly?

You know, people (really parents/family) think they know about this.....love thing. Truth is they don't. You can only choose who you love, it's really not up to them. But we gotta let parents be parents, right? Look, don't get me wrong I love my family to def, but you can't run my love life. That can't happen. You raised me, don't you think it's enough? I guess not. I'm around my teenish age, it's gotta stop. Imma keep bein me, and hopefully we will take it from there. I love you family! peace!