Everything About Me...

Everyday it seems as if I'm starting to find myself more and more ya know? Like, you pull out those family photos and you start to realize who you and your family is.. My family is straight from down south, what can i say? I mean they are from Virginia (VA stand up), North Carolina(Hollister stand up) and Georgia (Augusta to be exact). Does that make me southern? Uhhhhhh, NO! I am straight New York, i can't even relate to the southerners. I've been down there and it is so awesome i must say, but of course i was there for a limited time. Funeral go figure, had to miss three days of school..you get the point. Where does this leave me, though? I still have no idea what or who i am anymore. I feel like I've lost everything just about, and it never gets better. Don't let my smile and somewhat clear head get to you. Everyday you may see me and say there is nothing wrong. But deep inside, my mind is screaming and crying at me for the things I've seen and went through. As a kid, i never thought anything like this would ever happen to me. My life was flawless then, yet gradually my life was getting worse..without me even knowing. This year, I've lost friends (besties), 6 family members, a father who had a heart attack and lives, and most importantly i have lost myself in the making. To me there is no such thing as happiness unless I'm with the right people.. God bless the people i am happy with. I love them and can't afford to lose them because they are all i have left. I love you! "Nothing is ever promised tomorrow today, this is it"