Random Depression

I'm so crazy that i had to blog twice today! Ugh, i hate this feeling of insanity and depression! I want..to be free. Like this is so hard to explain. I have been locked up in my house all day and it's like...you miss things, people, life. I miss like my number one bestie right now and like..OMG! This always is problem. I did everything today. Listened to music, watched videos, aimed, danced, sang, rocked out, called people, eat. What else am i supposed to do?! I'm so freaking depressed now.. It's like an emotion that's hard to describe. You're mad, sad, angry, annoyed, and affectionate all in one jam packed emotion. I have no idea what to do with myself. I don't wanna go to my grammas because that is not my happy place anymore. I go even crazier over there. I for darn sure i do not want my father because all he does is tell me how old i'm getting then we have our awkward father and daughter talks and moments. Like ok dad i get it i'm older and you want to be the only man in my life. Yeah daddy i get it, you want me to be single for the rest of my life! NOT! I think i need my old cousin back. Nay Nay was everything although now we have a weird relationship, but still! That's like my twin. She understands me other than my #1 bestie. sigh..i'm losing it. Let it be Monday already!I miss school for once! Yazzy Wazzy is outtie. DEUCES TO MY CUTIES :-* <----Kisses