I Love Both You Guys

Anticipating the horrible symbol for what tomorrows date stands for. I mean, i don't know how I'm gonna deal with it. I can really care less about anybody else. I mean of course i care about my gramma. I don't know how she's gonna deal with it either, but like, me? [Sigh] It'll be hard, 'specially cuz everybody is already on edge and don't wanna deal with my crap. I don't blame them, but don't give me no b.s please. They need to remember i took this the hardest a year ago. Exactly at this time a year ago--I was home, i think. No, scratch that, i was at the hospital. Hearing my grandfather speak his last sentences, breathe his last breaths, hearing his heart beat their last beats. I've never in my life loved someone so strongly as a family member as much as i loved my grandfather. He was truly a remarkable person. So inspiring. Gave good advice and was my backbone for as long as i can remember. I loved him...so much. A year and a day ago, God took his life away due to that terrible disease called cancer. [Smh] Why? A question that will always stand in my life...why did you take his life away? I wanted to tell him that i met a person in my life that makes me just as happy as he does/did. And lemme tell ya, he was waiting quite a while to find something, someone, to make me smile like he made me smile. Someone outside of our family. And i finally did...too bad i can't introduce you guys... I love both you guys...very much. Now y'all can't meet.